Dear Jehovah's Witnesses!
If you notice or feel that the God you have been seduced to comes from a dark source, please do not commit suicide, do not give up! If you commit suicide, you are only fulfilling this false God's desire to destroy!
A reversal is possible, there is a way out! You will not regret the testing and sober assessment of the Watchtower doctrine. Turn to Christians! Once you get to know Jesus, you will never think about killing yourself again. With Jesus you will have life to the full.
If you don't live in the Heidelberg/Speyer area, I can still surely refer you to other Christians who can bring you closer to the way, the truth and the life.
Desperate deeds are no way out! If you think you've reached the bottom, you'll find another hand to catch you. It is the hand of Jesus. He is always ready to intervene in your life as soon as you give him the honour and do not let him forbid you to contact him.